A kiss.
The kiss that was worth 4 years of bottled up love for the guy i call my bestfriend.
No... he wasn't just the bestfriend... he was everything.
That kiss was like a dream come true. It was supposed to be the culmination of our friendship and a beginning of something much more better. But that's not gonna happen.
There's no hope.
After the "kiss" he couldn't even look at me... he mumbled something about having to go and i said something equally lame. It was sobering.
The day after the kiss he sent me one text message.
"Sorry".
That's it.
One word that was like a slap in the face, a shot to the head and a stab right in the middle of my blood pumpin' heart and i thought i had no heart...Hell! i guess i have one and it's hurting like it got pierced by a thousand needles.
Sh*t.
Sorry??? Is that all he can say?
i wasn't sorry when it happened but i am sorry now.
D*mn. How stupid could i get?
I shouldn't have risked what i cannot afford to lose. I should have just kept my mouth shut and my feelings tucked away.
Lousy tequila. Shouldn't have drank something that would loosen me up.
Sigh.
Its been two weeks since that kiss. We haven't talked to each other since then. I avoided him like he was a man on fire and he avoided me like i was the devil incarnate. I couldn't even bring myself to text him my usual good morning messages.
We have been best friends for 14 years and it's all going down the drain.I couldn't believe how a simple kiss could be so complicated.
I wish i could turn back time and do things differently. But i can't and i have to suffer the consequences of my actions. All i can do is hope that things will be alright but right now I'm missing my best friend.
The kiss that was worth 4 years of bottled up love for the guy i call my bestfriend.
No... he wasn't just the bestfriend... he was everything.
That kiss was like a dream come true. It was supposed to be the culmination of our friendship and a beginning of something much more better. But that's not gonna happen.
There's no hope.
After the "kiss" he couldn't even look at me... he mumbled something about having to go and i said something equally lame. It was sobering.
The day after the kiss he sent me one text message.
"Sorry".
That's it.
One word that was like a slap in the face, a shot to the head and a stab right in the middle of my blood pumpin' heart and i thought i had no heart...Hell! i guess i have one and it's hurting like it got pierced by a thousand needles.
Sh*t.
Sorry??? Is that all he can say?
i wasn't sorry when it happened but i am sorry now.
D*mn. How stupid could i get?
I shouldn't have risked what i cannot afford to lose. I should have just kept my mouth shut and my feelings tucked away.
Lousy tequila. Shouldn't have drank something that would loosen me up.
Sigh.
Its been two weeks since that kiss. We haven't talked to each other since then. I avoided him like he was a man on fire and he avoided me like i was the devil incarnate. I couldn't even bring myself to text him my usual good morning messages.
We have been best friends for 14 years and it's all going down the drain.I couldn't believe how a simple kiss could be so complicated.
I wish i could turn back time and do things differently. But i can't and i have to suffer the consequences of my actions. All i can do is hope that things will be alright but right now I'm missing my best friend.
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Posted: Jun 17, 2008
so sad T_T
so sad T_T
Posted: Jan 27, 2008
it really hurts... ive been there once! :(
it really hurts... ive been there once! :(
