After that night my life was in hell, totally hell. I can’t even imagine how disaster my life is that whatever you do and how hard you will try it wont really matter. Have you ever feel like your heart is blasting in pain? Have you ever tried to lower your pride for a man but you know for the fact that, that man is not into you anymore? Have you ever tried to put down your knees and beg just to love you back? Have you ever tried risking your heart to the man you love? Have you ever ever feel stupid that you did those things for that man that only cares about what he feels at that certain of time? Well, I did. And yes, I am stupid. Un-wanting the pain inside me almost leads me to have stopped my life but cutting my life line is not a solution. It might can only make things worst than ever.
The feeling like I was slapped in the face to realize that I no longer in my dreamland but I’m in the world of truth that no matter how many times I will fool myself it will always be that way. I can’t just easily jump into something or somewhere where I like just because I want it. Everything is not that easy as I think it is. It was like I was always placed first in the middle of the jungle and took those entire struggles that were in there. Like life. Same as what’s in the circulation of my life. I do have struggled to face before I reached the top. Not all the things I can get, not all the wants I can have and that’s the thing I’ve learned.
Every pain I’m taking is every furry I’ve felt that might be able to lead me in troubles and letting those strange emotions I’d felt conquering the whole of me might fatally destroy me and so to those people around me. I know how dangerous emotions can bring to me that every barrage of it will poison my mind and could possibly create stupidity. And so, acceptance is what I had in mind now. Thinking that maybe I can find peace in my heart by accepting everything… the heartaches, the hatred, the cruelties and the struggle that I’ve been in life.
And fortunately, acceptance is in me. I did not let those emotions will take over and ruined me. There is no point putting my self like I was behind bars just because of those emotions that make me so numb that was long trapped inside me. I let myself be free so that I can move on for me to be able to continue my life to the fullest without the troubles shooting in my way, to move my life into another stage level and so that eventually I can make my self a better me.
The feeling like I was slapped in the face to realize that I no longer in my dreamland but I’m in the world of truth that no matter how many times I will fool myself it will always be that way. I can’t just easily jump into something or somewhere where I like just because I want it. Everything is not that easy as I think it is. It was like I was always placed first in the middle of the jungle and took those entire struggles that were in there. Like life. Same as what’s in the circulation of my life. I do have struggled to face before I reached the top. Not all the things I can get, not all the wants I can have and that’s the thing I’ve learned.
Every pain I’m taking is every furry I’ve felt that might be able to lead me in troubles and letting those strange emotions I’d felt conquering the whole of me might fatally destroy me and so to those people around me. I know how dangerous emotions can bring to me that every barrage of it will poison my mind and could possibly create stupidity. And so, acceptance is what I had in mind now. Thinking that maybe I can find peace in my heart by accepting everything… the heartaches, the hatred, the cruelties and the struggle that I’ve been in life.
And fortunately, acceptance is in me. I did not let those emotions will take over and ruined me. There is no point putting my self like I was behind bars just because of those emotions that make me so numb that was long trapped inside me. I let myself be free so that I can move on for me to be able to continue my life to the fullest without the troubles shooting in my way, to move my life into another stage level and so that eventually I can make my self a better me.
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Posted: Oct 27, 2008
forget the past , face the future ... Ü
forget the past , face the future ... Ü
Posted: Oct 24, 2008
moving on is part of the many decisions we have to make in our lives.. its either we choose to remain hurting or to move on.... move on after all, in this case, there's no point of holding on.. ---donna gift---
moving on is part of the many decisions we have to make in our lives.. its either we choose to remain hurting or to move on.... move on after all, in this case, there's no point of holding on.. ---donna gift---
Posted: Oct 24, 2008
moving on is part of the many decisions we have to make in our lives.. its either we choose to remain hurting or to move on.... move on after all, in this case, there's no point of holding on..
moving on is part of the many decisions we have to make in our lives.. its either we choose to remain hurting or to move on.... move on after all, in this case, there's no point of holding on..
Posted: Oct 24, 2008
yah,ryt..thers so many butete in the sea and all of them are poisonous....so becarefull..nyahahaha
yah,ryt..thers so many butete in the sea and all of them are poisonous....so becarefull..nyahahaha
Posted: Oct 18, 2008
gorio says: i have no idea what happened that night but im sure it wasnt good.. i praise you for what you did. i may not be a love guru but i can feel you. forcing yourself to move on takes up much courage than jumping out of a plane with no chutes on!
gorio says: i have no idea what happened that night but im sure it wasnt good.. i praise you for what you did. i may not be a love guru but i can feel you. forcing yourself to move on takes up much courage than jumping out of a plane with no chutes on!
Posted: Oct 16, 2008
dont worry theres so many fish in the sea at tenix ko silang lahat! HAHAHA
dont worry theres so many fish in the sea at tenix ko silang lahat! HAHAHA
Posted: Oct 15, 2008
its good that you moved on cuz u only get hurt if u hold on the feelings u have to him . its better u let him go than sufer's the consequence! the guys doesnt wants you so dont be so selfish maybe sum other guys have the sameway feelings u have to u. Or wait sum1 who really make you happy! ayt? haha
its good that you moved on cuz u only get hurt if u hold on the feelings u have to him . its better u let him go than sufer's the consequence! the guys doesnt wants you so dont be so selfish maybe sum other guys have the sameway feelings u have to u. Or wait sum1 who really make you happy! ayt? haha
Posted: Oct 15, 2008
It was hard to fall in love on someone whos not even on to you. You better just kick there assess and move on.. the hell you care about them.. you have the life to live so . live it ok..
It was hard to fall in love on someone whos not even on to you. You better just kick there assess and move on.. the hell you care about them.. you have the life to live so . live it ok..
