Everything I see, hear and feel right now always reminds me of you. I rush home every single night to read your message or check what you have for me. You have interrupted the whole cycle of my life but to you, it’s just platonic. I never meant to feel this way. I could have stopped talking to you when I knew I would never have the chance to see you, I had the guts to just take you out of my life but I just won’t do that. Why should I? You are the best thing that ever happened to me and taking you out of this picture is like standing at the edge of a cliff, not knowing whether to jump or turn back and start walking again. You make me want to be a better person and I just want you to stay. I want us to be like this, for as long as we can. I need you here, not physically (but can be!)… just stick around coz I’m not giving up on you, on us… not just yet.
I don’t even know why coincidence is mean to me.
Last night, I thought of the future and I was afraid of what would life be. I was close to tears thinking of the possibilities and what I would miss about everything that is happening right now. I am always afraid of what’s ahead of me coz it feels like I am facing a blank wall in a dark room. I don’t want to move forward, I want to stay where I am right now because even without the assurance of what’s currently happening, I am happy. I am happy that you exist; I am glad that you are my friend, and I am slightly satisfied of what we have. You mean so much to me that without you in my future is an agony I have to go through. I will never have you the way I want to have you, I will never be given the chance to see you but at least I am allowed to love you in a way that I can. I may just be a great friend who can send you picture messages of my hugs but behind my friendship is something real and something I can never let go. I love you. There, I said it and I unfortunately mean it.
I don’t even know why coincidence is mean to me.
Last night, I thought of the future and I was afraid of what would life be. I was close to tears thinking of the possibilities and what I would miss about everything that is happening right now. I am always afraid of what’s ahead of me coz it feels like I am facing a blank wall in a dark room. I don’t want to move forward, I want to stay where I am right now because even without the assurance of what’s currently happening, I am happy. I am happy that you exist; I am glad that you are my friend, and I am slightly satisfied of what we have. You mean so much to me that without you in my future is an agony I have to go through. I will never have you the way I want to have you, I will never be given the chance to see you but at least I am allowed to love you in a way that I can. I may just be a great friend who can send you picture messages of my hugs but behind my friendship is something real and something I can never let go. I love you. There, I said it and I unfortunately mean it.
Rate :
Login to rate this entry
