I know that am not good enough for you. I am not interesting to talk to, I have no idea how Physics exactly works, I can't name the constellations, I know very little about art, my humor is plainly boring, I can’t talk about any of your interests and I know you are trying to understand my personal issues and why I talk about shoes and colors but you should know that it’s the only thing I’m good at, I can’t talk about anything else coz I’m boring… all in all, I’m a very shallow person.
My round nose always pops out of the picture; my pimple-scarred face is not an inch closer to average, I don’t have a body to die for… I’m this awkward ugly person who wants nothing else but to be loved back. Even with all this ugliness, I am still capable of loving.
I may not be closer to being gorgeous but I can love you the way you would want to be loved. I can keep you safe and I know I can never hurt you. But why can’t you see that? Why do you see through me? Why can’t you just feel the same way that I do? Why do you have to be who you are?
You’re messing me up without knowing it. I’ve redialed an applicant’s number so many times that I forgot I was calling an applicant. My mind is somewhere North right now and all I just want is to talk to you. You’ve played the Invisible mode a lot of times but I never learn. Why is forgetting you very difficult to do?
Would it make a difference if I would go missing for an entire week? Would you care to ask how I am? Would you even notice that I’m gone?
Sometimes, being just a dear friend isn’t enough. There are times that I wish I could have tried seeing you only as a friend, I live with my regrets and what ifs now. If I didn’t meet you then, how different my life could have been? If we didn’t chat along the way, I don’t think I’ll be in so much pain right now. If I didn’t fall in love with you, my life would have been so much easier. I wish I have the guts to tell you how I feel because I’m tired of playing games and I’m tired of giving out the clues. I’m getting tired of loving you in my silence. I’m tired of us being just friends. Or is it just because you are far from me that’s why I’m feeling this way? Whatever the answers are, I don’t care anymore. Truth be told, I miss you and I love the way that you are.
My round nose always pops out of the picture; my pimple-scarred face is not an inch closer to average, I don’t have a body to die for… I’m this awkward ugly person who wants nothing else but to be loved back. Even with all this ugliness, I am still capable of loving.
I may not be closer to being gorgeous but I can love you the way you would want to be loved. I can keep you safe and I know I can never hurt you. But why can’t you see that? Why do you see through me? Why can’t you just feel the same way that I do? Why do you have to be who you are?
You’re messing me up without knowing it. I’ve redialed an applicant’s number so many times that I forgot I was calling an applicant. My mind is somewhere North right now and all I just want is to talk to you. You’ve played the Invisible mode a lot of times but I never learn. Why is forgetting you very difficult to do?
Would it make a difference if I would go missing for an entire week? Would you care to ask how I am? Would you even notice that I’m gone?
Sometimes, being just a dear friend isn’t enough. There are times that I wish I could have tried seeing you only as a friend, I live with my regrets and what ifs now. If I didn’t meet you then, how different my life could have been? If we didn’t chat along the way, I don’t think I’ll be in so much pain right now. If I didn’t fall in love with you, my life would have been so much easier. I wish I have the guts to tell you how I feel because I’m tired of playing games and I’m tired of giving out the clues. I’m getting tired of loving you in my silence. I’m tired of us being just friends. Or is it just because you are far from me that’s why I’m feeling this way? Whatever the answers are, I don’t care anymore. Truth be told, I miss you and I love the way that you are.
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Posted: Sep 12, 2010
I agree with the comment above this one. You shouldn't ever down on yourself :D
I agree with the comment above this one. You shouldn't ever down on yourself :D
Posted: Aug 23, 2010
that's how i see myself and i'm not being emo :) thanks for reading my post and appreciating what you have read.
that's how i see myself and i'm not being emo :) thanks for reading my post and appreciating what you have read.
Posted: Aug 23, 2010
by the way, it's hTroy here... with that first comment :)
by the way, it's hTroy here... with that first comment :)
Posted: Aug 23, 2010
nice composition.. are you really that what you've described here? this awkwardly ugly person? well, i somehow think you're not.. :)
nice composition.. are you really that what you've described here? this awkwardly ugly person? well, i somehow think you're not.. :)
