Do you have any idea?, or let's say, you are just that numb or your way to deft to hear that someone is having a hard time living his damned life because you came around, wearing that big question mark in your face.
Sometimes I may think that, yes I am stupid, why I didn't notice on the first place that big road sign "Beware! confused girl!!" with blinking lights all over it. Well I guess that's what love really is, it is beyond what you just see. But for some reason, Why am I into this "suppose-to-be-happy" situation?, I really felt so lonely and hurt and so depressed.
I was really thinking way back then when, the simple and yet wonderful things are the only thing I know, I was so naive, to have this definition of love, and it was shattered that easy. But now all was left was empty rooms , empty playgrounds or an empty carousel turning around, playing those fading childish songs.
It really felt like standing on a carnival with no one except you, lonely and cold.
If only she would be brave enough to live on what she feels. But its all too late now, I have checked out, walking away to that empty carnival, looking at that hopeless carousel and wishing that it would be nice to ride and spend a couple more time on it, if only she manage to be brave enough to discover what she really wants. It is really a good chance to have met her, but I better be going now, the bus to the next carnival is waiting for me. So maybe this is it . . . bye
Sometimes I may think that, yes I am stupid, why I didn't notice on the first place that big road sign "Beware! confused girl!!" with blinking lights all over it. Well I guess that's what love really is, it is beyond what you just see. But for some reason, Why am I into this "suppose-to-be-happy" situation?, I really felt so lonely and hurt and so depressed.
I was really thinking way back then when, the simple and yet wonderful things are the only thing I know, I was so naive, to have this definition of love, and it was shattered that easy. But now all was left was empty rooms , empty playgrounds or an empty carousel turning around, playing those fading childish songs.
It really felt like standing on a carnival with no one except you, lonely and cold.
If only she would be brave enough to live on what she feels. But its all too late now, I have checked out, walking away to that empty carnival, looking at that hopeless carousel and wishing that it would be nice to ride and spend a couple more time on it, if only she manage to be brave enough to discover what she really wants. It is really a good chance to have met her, but I better be going now, the bus to the next carnival is waiting for me. So maybe this is it . . . bye
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Posted: Nov 01, 2007
ohwww... >:D<
ohwww... >:D<
Posted: Oct 14, 2007
I'm getting there, seems like this time, thinking about it way back, I could only appreciate the simple things that I've been missing a lot. I value friends even more now. And yes, I am far more better than what I am before. Thanks to you all... - coolnerd
I'm getting there, seems like this time, thinking about it way back, I could only appreciate the simple things that I've been missing a lot. I value friends even more now. And yes, I am far more better than what I am before. Thanks to you all... - coolnerd
Posted: Oct 14, 2007
I remember a feeling like that. Years have passed and now I don't regret moving on to the next "carousel". Move on cool nerd. I was hurt badly once before and after I moved on the old carousel saw me with new carousels and realized he missed out a lot. After 9 years of regret, he and I got back together. Believe it or not. Life has many surprises. You can't plan everything. Let life surprise you. Life is like riding a wave- someone once told me.. "Just ride the wave".. :) --DBM
I remember a feeling like that. Years have passed and now I don't regret moving on to the next "carousel". Move on cool nerd. I was hurt badly once before and after I moved on the old carousel saw me with new carousels and realized he missed out a lot. After 9 years of regret, he and I got back together. Believe it or not. Life has many surprises. You can't plan everything. Let life surprise you. Life is like riding a wave- someone once told me.. "Just ride the wave".. :) --DBM
Posted: Sep 29, 2007
Bravery is always among us, it may sound like a cliche to some . . . but choosing to be brave makes it a reality.
Bravery is always among us, it may sound like a cliche to some . . . but choosing to be brave makes it a reality.
Posted: Sep 28, 2007
If only she would be brave enough to live on what she feels. But its all too late now, I have checked out, walking away to that empty carnival, looking at that hopeless carousel and wishing that it would be nice to ride and spend a couple more time on it, if only she manage to be brave enough to discover what she really wants. It is really a good chance to have met her, but I better be going now, the bus to the next carnival is waiting for me. So maybe this is it . . . bye ---> maybe ur ryt maybe she's not brave enough..... =(
If only she would be brave enough to live on what she feels. But its all too late now, I have checked out, walking away to that empty carnival, looking at that hopeless carousel and wishing that it would be nice to ride and spend a couple more time on it, if only she manage to be brave enough to discover what she really wants. It is really a good chance to have met her, but I better be going now, the bus to the next carnival is waiting for me. So maybe this is it . . . bye ---> maybe ur ryt maybe she's not brave enough..... =(
Posted: Sep 21, 2007
Don't lose hope. Im sure there's a better carnival out there for you.. Let God be the driver of your bus and he'll drop you off to a nicer one.. :)
Don't lose hope. Im sure there's a better carnival out there for you.. Let God be the driver of your bus and he'll drop you off to a nicer one.. :)
Posted: Sep 21, 2007
Thanks....
Thanks....
Posted: Sep 20, 2007
good for you.. it's always better to move on when there's nothing to hold on to.. especially if you've run out of reasons to fight for it.. -- tsixilog
good for you.. it's always better to move on when there's nothing to hold on to.. especially if you've run out of reasons to fight for it.. -- tsixilog
