Its almost 3 weeks, since I've had this hard decision of killing the love that I have felt for her. Some said that it was the most painful thing a person could do in there lives ending something that could probably make you happy. I've been contended to just seeing her smiling, laughing around while chasing the thought, if she still has the feeling that she was uttering to me before things was great between us. Yes, it felt like a dream, my heart jump with joy every time I think about it. But reality does bite, I really can't have her. She has boyfriend and to make matters worst she love him. Yes, yes this may sound like an old story about a guy who fell in love with a girl who has a boyfriend, but I do hope its just as easy as that. I never thought it would complicate more, as I fell in love with her to much. Wishing she will broke up with him was one of the things that always struck my mind, how I wish, but damn she is really not for me.
3 weeks have passed since I put a line in between us, not just a line I guess, a space. A space of pain, being contended, a guilt, happiness amidst the sadness , an emptiness. Killing the feeling was never easy, it drains you of who you really are and the things that makes you happy. The process leaves you empty, that whenever someone comes around you can only look unto their eyes and wish that you could say something from your heart. Instead, a feeling of wanting to cry would came across your mind, that you could hardly spit out what you want to say. My heart is aching right now, I really don't know where it would go, how would it feel, what would it feel. It is stuck in a limbo of sadness, an unending field of emptiness and loneliness.
3 weeks have passed since I wish all of this would be a quick process, but no, this is not it, I don't even think I reach half way, It still the beginning, yet it feels like forever...
3 weeks have passed since I put a line in between us, not just a line I guess, a space. A space of pain, being contended, a guilt, happiness amidst the sadness , an emptiness. Killing the feeling was never easy, it drains you of who you really are and the things that makes you happy. The process leaves you empty, that whenever someone comes around you can only look unto their eyes and wish that you could say something from your heart. Instead, a feeling of wanting to cry would came across your mind, that you could hardly spit out what you want to say. My heart is aching right now, I really don't know where it would go, how would it feel, what would it feel. It is stuck in a limbo of sadness, an unending field of emptiness and loneliness.
3 weeks have passed since I wish all of this would be a quick process, but no, this is not it, I don't even think I reach half way, It still the beginning, yet it feels like forever...
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Posted: Dec 27, 2007
the 3rd party doesn't really mean villain, does it? i'm happy with him.hes happy with me. i'm meant to believe that in love there are no rules. :) but everything has its price, and i'm ready to pay for it if the time comes.
the 3rd party doesn't really mean villain, does it? i'm happy with him.hes happy with me. i'm meant to believe that in love there are no rules. :) but everything has its price, and i'm ready to pay for it if the time comes.
Posted: Nov 28, 2007
let the pain linger... it feels good to embrace pain sometimes... -VC-
let the pain linger... it feels good to embrace pain sometimes... -VC-
Posted: Aug 23, 2007
thats definitely normal. that feeling. iv been there and you totally find yourself lost,ryt? just feel the pain and embrace the loss and then let go. you don't have to kill it because suppressing such strong emotion can drive you crazy!you want that?! no you don't.. :) you know me.
thats definitely normal. that feeling. iv been there and you totally find yourself lost,ryt? just feel the pain and embrace the loss and then let go. you don't have to kill it because suppressing such strong emotion can drive you crazy!you want that?! no you don't.. :) you know me.
Posted: Aug 08, 2007
kill it before it kills you! argghhhh... move on. dont blind yourself.
kill it before it kills you! argghhhh... move on. dont blind yourself.
Posted: Jul 29, 2007
no such thing as forever... no need to kill "it". just let it run in the background. If it consumes your resources, it will eventually die as time passes by. Just think of your world a pool of processes. don't forcibly kill it. It will never be forever. :D
no such thing as forever... no need to kill "it". just let it run in the background. If it consumes your resources, it will eventually die as time passes by. Just think of your world a pool of processes. don't forcibly kill it. It will never be forever. :D
Posted: Jul 22, 2007
don't kill it, live with it, and learn from it. it's easier said than done, but hey, if it's all easy then there's no challenge to it.
don't kill it, live with it, and learn from it. it's easier said than done, but hey, if it's all easy then there's no challenge to it.
Posted: Jul 15, 2007
hmmmm.... hmmmm... hmmmm.... I can relate to this... but forcing yourself to kill what you feel to someone shows that you have not moved on. though it is really hard to let go of the feeling. yeah! it is the beginning but definitely not forever.
hmmmm.... hmmmm... hmmmm.... I can relate to this... but forcing yourself to kill what you feel to someone shows that you have not moved on. though it is really hard to let go of the feeling. yeah! it is the beginning but definitely not forever.
Posted: Jul 07, 2007
I felt that way to right now
I felt that way to right now
Posted: Jul 07, 2007
Doing right doesnt always makes us happy
Doing right doesnt always makes us happy
